I like to spoon it, spoon it

This weekend has been a pretty girl-involved weekend for me. It's late, and I'm tired so I won't go into all the details right now but here's a quick overview:
1. I went on a date with a girl from the speed dating event, I'll call her Cuddly Bear (because she's cute and cuddly looking).
2. I went to a party last night and hung out0 with a friend of RM2's who was cute.
3. I went home with a girl I knew and we spooned

I just want to spend a couple of minutes talking about #3. I had a workshop tonight and afterwards, several people from the workshop decided to go for drinks at the local bar, God of the Sky. It happened to be the 10th anniversary of the bar so it was packed and beer was flowing.

Carla, is a girl I've known from a bit through University. She's 8 years younger than me. I think she's cute but don't really want to pursue anything with her. That being said though, I saw that she was looking at me a bit tonight and we were both drinking.

She was going to walk home and halfway through the night I offered to walk her home and she accepted. She lives the complete opposite direction from where I live but I'm a gentleman and thought i"d be nice.

I wasn't expecting anything and I wasn't looking for sex. If anything, the most I wanted was to just cuddle with someone.

Well I got my wish.

I walked her home and she invited me up to watch a movie saying "I made you walk all this way, I know you don't want to just walk back home right away".

So we hit the couch and moments later we kind of cuddled. She was lying on the end and I was leaning on her, so even though I had my arm around her, I was kind of the secondary person in the hugging.

After a while, her roommate got up to go to the bathroom and Carla immediately moved to make it look like nothing was going on (which was true - nothing was going on). From then we never got back to our previous position.

I still managed to keep my arm around her front and rubbed her belly a bit.

For once I kind of m"made some moves" knowing that if she didn't want me to snuggle with her, she would have moved my arm away, but on the other hand, I didn't feel like she was really into it either.

When the movie ended, she got up brushed her teeth and came back, looking at me. I wasn't sure what to do so I simply said "I guess this is where you kick me out" and she just agreed.

So, I put my shoes on, left her apartment and had to walk home.

In the rain.

But, I still had fun. I would have kicked out if I was the same person I was 5 years ago, so I"m improving. On the other hand, it just made me feel even more lonely knowing that i hadn't snuggled with someone since Wendy and I kind of miss it.

Next time, don't tell me!

Tonight I went out with my new friend Concert Girl. I'm calling her that because i met her through craigslist while looking for someone to go to a concert with last month.

Concert Girl is from Germany and is travelling through Canada, staying in My City for 6 months. We've hung out a couple of times so far and she invited me out tonight with a friend of hers, Hot German (named so for obvious reasons) whom she met while travelling recently.

I met them at a cafe and then headed to a bar where we had a few beers. While there a friend of mine, Big Red, sent me a text asking what I was up to. I told him where i was and invited him to join us.

Once we met him we went to a second bar, actually it was more like a lounge and i quite liked the music. The place was packed so we had to squish into a corner. The seating ended up being Hot German and I across from Concert Girl and Big Red.

So, I ended up chatting with Hot German for a while about Australia. Both of us had been and we were sharing our experiences. I noticed that she started to lean into me a bit and was talking into my ear a lot because the place was noisy.

The most I did in return was i placed my arm along the bench behind her, but not actually touching her.

After a while, I get a text message. I check my phone and it's from Big Red from across the table! I casually read my phone and it simply says "She's really into you take her home".

For the life of me I don't understand how others can perceive things like that but I can't. Until then I didn't care if she was or was not into me and i wasn't trying anything. Then Big Red makes me aware and I felt like it just killed the mood for everyone.

What happened next was I texted him back saying that although she may be into me, both of the girls were heading on a road trip tomorrow and had to get up early. His response to that was simply "offer to show her something from your trip to Australia in your house". At this point I was in the bathroom, but when I returned to the table, everyone was quiet, like the secret was out. Then to make matters worse Big Red says "Lets all go to Elwood's! he's go beers!" and I even added "oh yeah and my roommates are gone".

More silence.

Finally the Germans admitted they had to get up early and we left.

Hot German is going straight to another city upon returning here from the road trip so I will never see her again. Meanwhile, I hope Concert Girl still wants to be friends because I think she's cool and fun to hang out with.

The night wasn't as awkward as I may make it sound but I feel like had I not been told someone was into me, I would have acted more natural.

Can you keep up with me?

It's Friday night. It's almost midnight. It's really hot in my room. I'm kind of tired. Yet, for some reason I just feel like doing something.

The big party I hear outside my window from an adjacent apartment isn't helping.

I hate when I'm like this. I'm just someone that always likes to keep busy. All my friends know this because sometimes I want to do so many tings it's hard to keep up.

I don't know why, but sometimes i feel like everyone else is doing something and i"m always stuck at home. The funny thing is that I actually do quite a lot. There are periods when I"ll have 4-5 parties to go to in one night. I'm constantly going out to shows and hanging out with people. But, there are also periods when I feel alone. Like tonight.


However,I guess I am changing and excepting that it's good to be alone sometimes because in the past, when I'd feel like this, I'd just go out aimlessly, looking for something to do.

In the end, it could be ind of depressing, because it's like I'm walking around hoping to find someone to entertain me. For something random to happen.

It has worked in the past. One night, 4 years ago, I was really antsy and decided to go walk around the local hangouts in hope to find someone I knew. After wandering the streets for over an hour I decided to give up but on the way home bumped into 3 drunk girls who admired my The Darkness t-shirt and we had a beer together. Turns out 2 of them were from Ireland on a work visa and in Montreal for the summer.

We ended up hanging out all summer and I met lots of other cool travellers through them. It was because of them that I ended up in Australia. They convinced me to go travel.

As much as I'd like for something like that to happen (or perhaps I meet a hot chick), I feel like i"m too old (and maybe more mature now?) to go out and seek for things.

Well I hope this post made some sense. It's so damn hot in here.

I'm off to bed.