The week back to work after having time off is always tough. Add onto to that the fact that Indie Rock Girl is gone probably forever. She e-mailed me the other day to say she had fun in My City and and said our friendship is special to me and hopes we can always be friends. So that was nice.
To keep me sane I've been watching an episode of The Wire, Season 1, every day this week. And it's helping!
Then when I'm through with that, I got Battlestar Galactica to get into.
Hooray for HMV gift certificates!
Friday, August 20, 2010
Monday, August 16, 2010
All good things come to an end
She's gone.
We had dinner together tonight at a great vegetarian place. Then she came over to check something on the Internet. I walked her to the door. We hugged and she said "Well... bye!". Or something along those lines.
I didn't have much else to say either. I'm trying not to make a big deal out of it and figured the less said the better.
She leaves tomorrow to fly back home and I'm not sure if she'll ever come back to Montreal. I guess the plan is to stay in touch via e-mail but I'm hoping to keep them pretty sporadic so I don't get too excited and distracted by them. I knwo it sounds silly but I have to get it in my head that from now on it'll be e-mails from a friend, like a pen pal, and not like a long distant girlfriend.
Don't worry about me, I'm fine this time.
I had a lot of fun with her this past week but we both knew this was going to happen and I have other things to keep my mind afloat: 1. Findind a new job and 2. finding a new apartment.
Yes, my roommates have informed me that they will be wanting to live alone come this January (they are a couple) which makes total sense.
In the end, I gave IRG her gift and she loved it. We ended up going to her friend'sd party which was fun adn had amazing food. Then we ended the night at the apartment she was staying at. This time she invited me up, so that felt nice.
Well she's gone.
I'll get over her but I can't but say:
I'll miss you.
We had dinner together tonight at a great vegetarian place. Then she came over to check something on the Internet. I walked her to the door. We hugged and she said "Well... bye!". Or something along those lines.
I didn't have much else to say either. I'm trying not to make a big deal out of it and figured the less said the better.
She leaves tomorrow to fly back home and I'm not sure if she'll ever come back to Montreal. I guess the plan is to stay in touch via e-mail but I'm hoping to keep them pretty sporadic so I don't get too excited and distracted by them. I knwo it sounds silly but I have to get it in my head that from now on it'll be e-mails from a friend, like a pen pal, and not like a long distant girlfriend.
Don't worry about me, I'm fine this time.
I had a lot of fun with her this past week but we both knew this was going to happen and I have other things to keep my mind afloat: 1. Findind a new job and 2. finding a new apartment.
Yes, my roommates have informed me that they will be wanting to live alone come this January (they are a couple) which makes total sense.
In the end, I gave IRG her gift and she loved it. We ended up going to her friend'sd party which was fun adn had amazing food. Then we ended the night at the apartment she was staying at. This time she invited me up, so that felt nice.
Well she's gone.
I'll get over her but I can't but say:
I'll miss you.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
My Week With Indie Rock Girl
What started off as an awkward beginning soon melted into a comfortable state.
After my freak out on Monday night, Indie Rock Girl and I met up Tuesday night to go watch a Shakespeare play in the park. The weather was beautiful and we biked there. When we arrived she asked me to hold he hand. Immediately it felt like a huge weight fell off my shoulders.
The play was a lot of fun. I really thought I'd hate it but it was very enjoyable.
After the show I biked with her back to the apartment and we stared at each other for a few seconds in silence so I asked if I could come up.
Cut to 5 minutes later making out on the couch.
I'll spare the details but we ended up in the bed and we had a pretty long period of sex. Aside from the time I went home with a friend just after IRG left (we never had intercourse), this was the first time I had sex since May.
Wednesday morning we went for breakfast and then spent the day shopping.
At night she came to watch me perform in a show and then we called it an early night since we had to get up early the next morning to go to the water slides with my brother Ira and his 2 friends.
The day at the water slides was a lot of fun. I didn't plan it that way, but ended up spending almost all my time with IRG since she didn't want to do a lot of the same stuff as my brother and his friends. However, everyone was really cool about it and she was fine when I ditched a little to go hang out with my bro on a ride or two. Originally I thought I'd miss out on a lot of fun rides since she seemed to just want to laze around in the pool and stuff but when my bro and his friends went off to wait in line for a specific ride, IRG and I ended up doing all the rides at the park (there are about 10 different kinds) and when we met up again, Ira and his friends had only been able to do that one ride due to the line up (it's the most popular one).
After the water slides, I had to rush home to get ready for another show I was in. IRG met me there to watch us perform. It was a pretty good show.
After the show, I walked her home and asked if I could come up again. I didnt' like that I had to ask but I really just wanted to spend the night with her. I had no intention of having sex. I just figured our time together is coming to an end and it would feel nice to sleep with another body. At first she was skeptical because she thought I asked to come up for sex, but when I told her i just wanted to sleep together, she was ok with that.
The next morning we woke up in each others arms and when I left to get my day going, she thanked me for coming up and said it was nice! That just blew my mind since I felt like I did a very needy thing and then she ended up being glad I did.
Friday I spent the day with my parents and had another show at night.
Today (Saturday) I have a few errands to attend to and I really want to see if I could work on her birthday present. Obviously I'd rather just spend time with her but I decided to save time, instead of making it on the computer, I could do it by hand using pencil crayons and it'll go a hell of a lot faster, and look more homemade too. Then I'll meet her later today to hang out for a bit.
I hope I get the chance, because tonight is a party her friend's are throwing her and even though I'll be there, it''ll be hard to spend time 1 on 1.
Well I best get my day started!
After my freak out on Monday night, Indie Rock Girl and I met up Tuesday night to go watch a Shakespeare play in the park. The weather was beautiful and we biked there. When we arrived she asked me to hold he hand. Immediately it felt like a huge weight fell off my shoulders.
The play was a lot of fun. I really thought I'd hate it but it was very enjoyable.
After the show I biked with her back to the apartment and we stared at each other for a few seconds in silence so I asked if I could come up.
Cut to 5 minutes later making out on the couch.
I'll spare the details but we ended up in the bed and we had a pretty long period of sex. Aside from the time I went home with a friend just after IRG left (we never had intercourse), this was the first time I had sex since May.
Wednesday morning we went for breakfast and then spent the day shopping.
At night she came to watch me perform in a show and then we called it an early night since we had to get up early the next morning to go to the water slides with my brother Ira and his 2 friends.
The day at the water slides was a lot of fun. I didn't plan it that way, but ended up spending almost all my time with IRG since she didn't want to do a lot of the same stuff as my brother and his friends. However, everyone was really cool about it and she was fine when I ditched a little to go hang out with my bro on a ride or two. Originally I thought I'd miss out on a lot of fun rides since she seemed to just want to laze around in the pool and stuff but when my bro and his friends went off to wait in line for a specific ride, IRG and I ended up doing all the rides at the park (there are about 10 different kinds) and when we met up again, Ira and his friends had only been able to do that one ride due to the line up (it's the most popular one).
After the water slides, I had to rush home to get ready for another show I was in. IRG met me there to watch us perform. It was a pretty good show.
After the show, I walked her home and asked if I could come up again. I didnt' like that I had to ask but I really just wanted to spend the night with her. I had no intention of having sex. I just figured our time together is coming to an end and it would feel nice to sleep with another body. At first she was skeptical because she thought I asked to come up for sex, but when I told her i just wanted to sleep together, she was ok with that.
The next morning we woke up in each others arms and when I left to get my day going, she thanked me for coming up and said it was nice! That just blew my mind since I felt like I did a very needy thing and then she ended up being glad I did.
Friday I spent the day with my parents and had another show at night.
Today (Saturday) I have a few errands to attend to and I really want to see if I could work on her birthday present. Obviously I'd rather just spend time with her but I decided to save time, instead of making it on the computer, I could do it by hand using pencil crayons and it'll go a hell of a lot faster, and look more homemade too. Then I'll meet her later today to hang out for a bit.
I hope I get the chance, because tonight is a party her friend's are throwing her and even though I'll be there, it''ll be hard to spend time 1 on 1.
Well I best get my day started!
Monday, August 9, 2010
I will never learn
I spent most of th eafternoon and evening with Indie Rock Girl.
I invited her to come to the water slides with Ira and I on Wednesday so we had to go bathing suit shopping since she left hers back home.
Afterwards we went to a park so I could play guitar and her read a book. I was so tired a fell asleep for a couple of minutes.
We returned to my place and made dinner together. I forgot how much fun it is to make dinner with her.
After we ate we were going to watch a movie but I had to finsih a project for someone and when I was done she was too tired so we played cards.
At this point after spending all day with her my mind had turned to mush adn all I wanted to do was kiss her. I was having a hard time concentrating on anything. Then I walked her to the door and we hugged for an extended period of time. No one wanted to let go.
I pulled back, looked at her... and did nothing.
She walked to my door talked a few more minutes, saw me staring at her with puppy dog eyes and asked "what?" and I just told her i was tired.
She went down the stairs and walked away. She turned back as she went down the sidewalk and I waved. She waved back.
Why is this so hard?? We said we'd have fun, so why do I have this feeling of hesitation?
I invited her to come to the water slides with Ira and I on Wednesday so we had to go bathing suit shopping since she left hers back home.
Afterwards we went to a park so I could play guitar and her read a book. I was so tired a fell asleep for a couple of minutes.
We returned to my place and made dinner together. I forgot how much fun it is to make dinner with her.
After we ate we were going to watch a movie but I had to finsih a project for someone and when I was done she was too tired so we played cards.
At this point after spending all day with her my mind had turned to mush adn all I wanted to do was kiss her. I was having a hard time concentrating on anything. Then I walked her to the door and we hugged for an extended period of time. No one wanted to let go.
I pulled back, looked at her... and did nothing.
She walked to my door talked a few more minutes, saw me staring at her with puppy dog eyes and asked "what?" and I just told her i was tired.
She went down the stairs and walked away. She turned back as she went down the sidewalk and I waved. She waved back.
Why is this so hard?? We said we'd have fun, so why do I have this feeling of hesitation?
A fun Wedding and a week ahead
Last night I went to a wedding with Indie Rock Girl. The whole reason she is in town was for this wedding and she had arranged for me to be her date. The plan was to meet her at her friends' place in a spot pretty far from my apartment and in no way on the way to the wedding, but I went there nonetheless so I wouldn't arrive at the wedding all alone.
I ended up rushing like mad to get ready and after putting on my suit and preparing my tie perfectly, that's when I realized I forgot to shave and had to rush even more, After shaving at the speed of light, I ran down to the Subway and arrived where IRG told me to meet them in just the nick of time! I hopped into the cab and we went to the wedding.
The wedding was located in a restaurant by the port of My City. It was a very nice looking place and a cute small ceremony. The couple were married by the court of law with the bride's father reading all the legal documents to make it a legal marriage.
After the ceremony was an open bar followed by the supper of the night. It is the first wedding Ive been to that instead of asking the patron which dish they wanted, small bowls were prepared of several dishes and we got to take what we wanted to eat.
Aside from the open bar, during the meal, they were not cheap on the wine at all. As soon as your glass was looking empty, they just filled it up again. I ended up having quite a bit to drink and IRG had even more. I've actually never seen her drink so much before.
About halfway during the dancing part, a bunch of us were hanging outside on the patio and IRG and I ended up holding hands secretely.
I stayed at the wedding until about 12:30am when I left with IRG to walk to the Subway. The whole walk there we ended up holding hands and even when she let go to tie her show or fix something, she just went back and grabbed my hand again, which honestly, felt really nice.
When we arrived at the Subway, again we had to go in seperate directions. However, when I went to give her a hug, somehow our lips met and we kissed briefly. We did not make out or anything btu I didnt' see her regreting he decision on letting me kiss her.
I'm almost 99% sure all of that happened because of the alcohol. In any case, I am now officially on vacation for a full week. She is here the entire week and as of tomorrow will eb staying at the apartment of the newly weds to house sit. Thaey happen to live exactly 1 block away. I hope to hang otu with ehr at least several times this week and have no idea how things will pan out.
We shall see...
I ended up rushing like mad to get ready and after putting on my suit and preparing my tie perfectly, that's when I realized I forgot to shave and had to rush even more, After shaving at the speed of light, I ran down to the Subway and arrived where IRG told me to meet them in just the nick of time! I hopped into the cab and we went to the wedding.
The wedding was located in a restaurant by the port of My City. It was a very nice looking place and a cute small ceremony. The couple were married by the court of law with the bride's father reading all the legal documents to make it a legal marriage.
After the ceremony was an open bar followed by the supper of the night. It is the first wedding Ive been to that instead of asking the patron which dish they wanted, small bowls were prepared of several dishes and we got to take what we wanted to eat.
Aside from the open bar, during the meal, they were not cheap on the wine at all. As soon as your glass was looking empty, they just filled it up again. I ended up having quite a bit to drink and IRG had even more. I've actually never seen her drink so much before.
About halfway during the dancing part, a bunch of us were hanging outside on the patio and IRG and I ended up holding hands secretely.
I stayed at the wedding until about 12:30am when I left with IRG to walk to the Subway. The whole walk there we ended up holding hands and even when she let go to tie her show or fix something, she just went back and grabbed my hand again, which honestly, felt really nice.
When we arrived at the Subway, again we had to go in seperate directions. However, when I went to give her a hug, somehow our lips met and we kissed briefly. We did not make out or anything btu I didnt' see her regreting he decision on letting me kiss her.
I'm almost 99% sure all of that happened because of the alcohol. In any case, I am now officially on vacation for a full week. She is here the entire week and as of tomorrow will eb staying at the apartment of the newly weds to house sit. Thaey happen to live exactly 1 block away. I hope to hang otu with ehr at least several times this week and have no idea how things will pan out.
We shall see...
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Must... Avoid... Awkwardness!
Thursday was Indie Rock Girl's birthday (fun fact - she's actually 2 years older than me) and was the same day she arrived in My City for her 12 day visit.
The primary reason for her visit is a wedding. Someone she used to work with is getting married. Today in fact.
Then, she decided since she loved Montreal so much, she would stay for an extra week. So for those of you who are wondering, she didn't come just to visit me. Although, as mentioned in an earlier post, she had told me via e-mail that we could be pretend girlfriend/boyfriend but that was over a month ago.
That being said I'm not really sure what to do or what I want to do.
On Thursday, I met up with her and her friends for dinner and then just her and I went to see a comedy show. Following the show, I treated her for ice cream and then we walked to the subway together. We had to go in opposite directions, adn my car was hear coming, so I gave her a hug and left.
I guess i could have tried to kiss her but I'll admit I'm afraid. I'm glad she's back and when I hung out with her it felt like she never left. I just don't want to scare her off. I'd rather do nothing and have a guaranteed fun tie with her than try something and make everything awkward between us. I know she told me we could be pretend dating but she's also said she likes being my friend in a later e-mail as well as signed the gift she sent me with "Your friend, Indie Rock Girl". It is possible she just changed her mind and I'm just too afraid to ask.
Right now she's staying at a friend's place at the other side of town but come Monday she'll be house sitting for the newly weds and will be only one block away from me. I'm also off work for the entire week, so the plan is to hang out all week if possible. I'm also her date for the wedding so I'll get to see her today as well.
All that being said, I think I'll just step back and see what happens.
The primary reason for her visit is a wedding. Someone she used to work with is getting married. Today in fact.
Then, she decided since she loved Montreal so much, she would stay for an extra week. So for those of you who are wondering, she didn't come just to visit me. Although, as mentioned in an earlier post, she had told me via e-mail that we could be pretend girlfriend/boyfriend but that was over a month ago.
That being said I'm not really sure what to do or what I want to do.
On Thursday, I met up with her and her friends for dinner and then just her and I went to see a comedy show. Following the show, I treated her for ice cream and then we walked to the subway together. We had to go in opposite directions, adn my car was hear coming, so I gave her a hug and left.
I guess i could have tried to kiss her but I'll admit I'm afraid. I'm glad she's back and when I hung out with her it felt like she never left. I just don't want to scare her off. I'd rather do nothing and have a guaranteed fun tie with her than try something and make everything awkward between us. I know she told me we could be pretend dating but she's also said she likes being my friend in a later e-mail as well as signed the gift she sent me with "Your friend, Indie Rock Girl". It is possible she just changed her mind and I'm just too afraid to ask.
Right now she's staying at a friend's place at the other side of town but come Monday she'll be house sitting for the newly weds and will be only one block away from me. I'm also off work for the entire week, so the plan is to hang out all week if possible. I'm also her date for the wedding so I'll get to see her today as well.
All that being said, I think I'll just step back and see what happens.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
She's back
TOday INdie Rock Girl arrived in My City. She's here for over a week.
I also managed to take off next week from work.
Expect a lot of blogging all of a sudden.
I'm off to her birthday dinner right now.
Updates to follow!
I also managed to take off next week from work.
Expect a lot of blogging all of a sudden.
I'm off to her birthday dinner right now.
Updates to follow!
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