Before I start writing about all my crazy dates of 2011, I thought I'd start with my experience on New Years Eve.
Every year this particular theater hosts a high school dance party night. I've attended the event for the past 2 years and decided to volunteer at this years. My role was to make sure no one is left out on the side waiting to dance. I was basically a designated dancer. This led me to dance and meet multiple people (i.e. everyone - guys and girls). A lot of my friends had attended as well so that was fun.
Throughout the night, after dancing with everyone, you tend to go back to the same people you enjoyed from earlier. I ended up re-dancing with a few girls but one seemed to stick out. I'll Call her NYE Girl (original, I know). After dancing with her a 3rd time she said she was hungry and asked if we could go get food.
As thrilled as I was to go off with this person, I discovered NYE Girl was from out of town and was with a bunch of friends. I wanted to be sure her friends knew what she was up to. Well it turned out by coincidence that her friends also wanted to get food and at the same place I was suggesting. So we all left the party to go eat.
After our late night dinner (it was about 3 am) they were figuring out how to cab home and then they realized they were going to be a lot of people crashing at the same apartment. So, NYE Girl tells her friends she'll just crash at my place! Before asking me! Totally not what I was expecting.
I wanted to lend a helping hand and the way it happened, genuinely felt like she just wanted a place to stay.
We cabbed to my place with my roommate (after meeting up with her). I had texted my roommate just before to a) let her know someone was coming over and b) most likely sleeping on the couch.
NYE Girl and I head to my room, to which I discovered I left a huge pile of laundry on my bed before I left my apartment. So I started to fold my clothes and she began to help me. Underwear and all...
Then in the most original segue to sex, she jumps on my back and says "Give me a piggy back ride!". Not knowing what to do, I flipped her on the bed and then kissed her.
It was on. She was definitely not sleeping on the couch tonight.
I'll spare details, but we fooled around for a very long time, until it was time for it, which never happened. I just couldn't, um, perform. I wasn't drunk, just nervous, I guess. It'd been almost a year and a half since I'd been with a girl. By then it was 6am and we cuddled to sleep.
I cannot sleep well with another body in my bed, especially if we're holding each other, so my sleep was almost non-existant. I was exhausted the next day.
On New Years day we stayed in bed for a while, then got out so I could make us french toast and then went back to relax in bed. Then we had sex (all the way) although I last as fast a speeding bullet... which was upsetting (for me) but she said she still enjoyed it.
Eventually NYE Girl had to leave but wanted to borrow a sweater for the cold weather which meant she wanted to meet me the following day to hang otu before she left to go back home to her city. SO we arranged to meet up the next day.
She ended up coming over again after going out for dinner and we proceeded to make out. Things were going great until she started to ask me things like "So did you notice me all night?" etc. To be honest, she came onto me strong, she was cute and she came over to my place. No complaints, but I had no intentions really. I barely noticed her.
She started to feel really clingy and was saying how she'd be back to visit and stuff. So I just cut her off and said if she were to come back to My City, I'd like to stay friends. Shit really got weird because she started to cry. We had a very long and awkward conversation and then just stopped and started over, pretending that never happend.
Although it did happen and I just wasn't emotionally invested in the sex anymore, even though she asked me if I still wanted to. So I thought she was ok with that (actually she made it sound like she didn't want to have sex anymore either) but then she asked again. By this point it was time for her to leave. She asked if she could sleep over again but I really had to work.
Even with the awkward ending, in the end New Years was a lot of fun and it was fun to pretend to have someone for at least a couple of days.
Heck, maybe if she does come back to visit, we can still fool around. Who knows.
-Elwood
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Friday, January 6, 2012
I'm back
I can't explain it, but after giving up on this blog for just over a year, I feel like writing again.
A brief history
I started this thing in 2007 when my first girlfriend and I were in the midst of breaking up. We had dated for over a year. I had never dated anyone before and at the age of 26, it was a big deal.
Although we got along, not much happened in the relationship. We never had sex and I was still a virgin. It was bound to end.
I started the blog because a few of my friends had one and it seemed like a good way to figure things out about dating.
After I got over my ex (it took a while) I started going on dates and wrote about my adventures.
People started to take some notice of this blog, but then I lost interest in writing.
To my surprise, I found out that a bunch of my readers were women and they wanted me to continue writing. So I did.
Eventually it got boring since I was running out of things to say... until I lost my virginity at the age of 28 to a friend (on my mom's birthday to boot) and shortly after I met Indie Rock Girl.
We had dated for 3 months before moving away. She was awesome and totally different than my first girlfriend. Plus we had lots of sex.
Within the year after she left I I went on some dates (but not much) until December of 2010 where I dated a new girl for almost a month before insulting her on her kissing (total accident) and never hearing from her again (I found out recently, within a week of the incident, she'd been set up with a guy and they've been happily together for the past year).
By then writing got boring again. After 3 years it was the same old and my dates went dry so didn't have much to talk about, so I stopped.
Until now.
So what has happened to me in the past year? A lot.
- New job (hated the old one / love the new one).
- New apartment and roommate. She's awesome and we talk about a lot of things.
- New dress style. While moving a friend of mine helped me rid of all my old/ill fitting/ugly clothing. Now I dress with more fitted clothes and enjoy wearing ties and dress shirts when I can.
- Lots and lots of dates. After I got over my first ex, I made a vow to go on a date with 10 other girls. It took me about a year to do so. Now, I've been on at least 15 dates in the past 6 months. Some were good, some were bad. All have a "story" to them, which I hope to write about in the future.
I also got an iPhone so it'll be easier for met to update. I'm going to try and keep my posts as short and concise so I can spread then out (looks like I already failed with this post).
I still weigh the same though (a whopping 130lbs for my 6'1" frame.
-Elwood
A brief history
I started this thing in 2007 when my first girlfriend and I were in the midst of breaking up. We had dated for over a year. I had never dated anyone before and at the age of 26, it was a big deal.
Although we got along, not much happened in the relationship. We never had sex and I was still a virgin. It was bound to end.
I started the blog because a few of my friends had one and it seemed like a good way to figure things out about dating.
After I got over my ex (it took a while) I started going on dates and wrote about my adventures.
People started to take some notice of this blog, but then I lost interest in writing.
To my surprise, I found out that a bunch of my readers were women and they wanted me to continue writing. So I did.
Eventually it got boring since I was running out of things to say... until I lost my virginity at the age of 28 to a friend (on my mom's birthday to boot) and shortly after I met Indie Rock Girl.
We had dated for 3 months before moving away. She was awesome and totally different than my first girlfriend. Plus we had lots of sex.
Within the year after she left I I went on some dates (but not much) until December of 2010 where I dated a new girl for almost a month before insulting her on her kissing (total accident) and never hearing from her again (I found out recently, within a week of the incident, she'd been set up with a guy and they've been happily together for the past year).
By then writing got boring again. After 3 years it was the same old and my dates went dry so didn't have much to talk about, so I stopped.
Until now.
So what has happened to me in the past year? A lot.
- New job (hated the old one / love the new one).
- New apartment and roommate. She's awesome and we talk about a lot of things.
- New dress style. While moving a friend of mine helped me rid of all my old/ill fitting/ugly clothing. Now I dress with more fitted clothes and enjoy wearing ties and dress shirts when I can.
- Lots and lots of dates. After I got over my first ex, I made a vow to go on a date with 10 other girls. It took me about a year to do so. Now, I've been on at least 15 dates in the past 6 months. Some were good, some were bad. All have a "story" to them, which I hope to write about in the future.
I also got an iPhone so it'll be easier for met to update. I'm going to try and keep my posts as short and concise so I can spread then out (looks like I already failed with this post).
I still weigh the same though (a whopping 130lbs for my 6'1" frame.
-Elwood
Thursday, December 16, 2010
There's always an explanation
I'll admit, today I was under the impression that things went worse last night than I thought because Cute Jew 2 never came to my show tonight. Yesterday she was all excited and wanted to go. I couldn't remember if she had that enthusiasm before or after I insulted her for commenting on her kissing. Either way, at the end of the night, when I walked her to the bus I forgot about the show and just wished her a good trip (she's going away for the weekend) and told her to call me when she got back into town.
Realizing this, I texted her when I got home to confirm if she was still coming.
No answer.
I figured. it was late so that was why. So at work today I texted her again.
No answer.
All day I thought she just didn't want to talk to me anymore. I didn't let it bother me but I made up my mind I'd have to see if i hear from her when she's back. If she doesn't get in touch with me than that's that.
Well turns out she did write back to me on facebook and I never got the message since for some strange reason facebook stopped e-mailing me updates. Turns out she was just too busy to come. However, her text was really short so there is a possibility I did turn her off last night with my comments but I'll just have to see what happens.
Guess there's always a an explanation for everything.
Realizing this, I texted her when I got home to confirm if she was still coming.
No answer.
I figured. it was late so that was why. So at work today I texted her again.
No answer.
All day I thought she just didn't want to talk to me anymore. I didn't let it bother me but I made up my mind I'd have to see if i hear from her when she's back. If she doesn't get in touch with me than that's that.
Well turns out she did write back to me on facebook and I never got the message since for some strange reason facebook stopped e-mailing me updates. Turns out she was just too busy to come. However, her text was really short so there is a possibility I did turn her off last night with my comments but I'll just have to see what happens.
Guess there's always a an explanation for everything.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Small World
Unless I ruined things yesterday with my comments yesterday I guess you can say Cute Jew 2 and I are dating. Since I've decided to see how things go and keep it exclusive (i.e. not dating anyone else), I've lost any interest to go on dating websites.
However, I don't intent to delete my profiles, just not use them. Maybe if things get more serious with CJ2 I can always change my availability on the sites but most people get the idea when it shows the user hasn't logged on in months.
However, OK!Cupid sent me an e-mail to inform me that I received mail from someone on their website. I could have ignored it but I read it out of curiosity and basically a girl read my profile and liked it and decided to send me a message.
Well, I realized I recognized her picture. I met her at a party CJ2 invited me to 2 weeks ago. There were 8 people there and I was the only guy. I didn't say more to her except hi and introduce myself. Plus, my OK!Cupid profile is outdated with a picture of me with a mustache. I now have a goatee.
Being the gentleman I am I figured since she put so much effort to contact me (she stated that in her message) that I wouldn't keep her hanging and let her know I'm currently dating someone else.
As someone who has set tons of messages without any responses, I feel a response is better than none. So my dear readers, keep that in mind when internet dating.
That's my 2 cents.
However, I don't intent to delete my profiles, just not use them. Maybe if things get more serious with CJ2 I can always change my availability on the sites but most people get the idea when it shows the user hasn't logged on in months.
However, OK!Cupid sent me an e-mail to inform me that I received mail from someone on their website. I could have ignored it but I read it out of curiosity and basically a girl read my profile and liked it and decided to send me a message.
Well, I realized I recognized her picture. I met her at a party CJ2 invited me to 2 weeks ago. There were 8 people there and I was the only guy. I didn't say more to her except hi and introduce myself. Plus, my OK!Cupid profile is outdated with a picture of me with a mustache. I now have a goatee.
Being the gentleman I am I figured since she put so much effort to contact me (she stated that in her message) that I wouldn't keep her hanging and let her know I'm currently dating someone else.
As someone who has set tons of messages without any responses, I feel a response is better than none. So my dear readers, keep that in mind when internet dating.
That's my 2 cents.
King of Awkward
I swear you'd think I do it on person just to have an awkward story...
Tonight I had another date with Cute Jew 2 (CJ2). This makes it's date # 9 in 3 weeks.
We had seen a movie Saturday night and after the movie marked the first time we really kissed more than once (i.e. make out). She really liked it and even gave me a "crazy in love" look which did freak me out a bit but I just reminded myself that she's not very experienced and must just be excited as I am.
Tonight, however, we took it easy. CJ2 came over and I cooked us dinner. We then went to my room to watch some TV on my computer. Halfway through the episode, it turned into a make out session. At first I was really overwhelmed. She was kissing me with such force and it was so frantic it felt like she need my kisses to live or something. I enjoyed it but felt it was a bit much.
I then learnt a bit of my limits with her. I had placed my hand on her hip and started moving it toward her leg. As I inched her butt, she grabbed my hand and moved it higher up her hip again. No touching below the hip... got it.
Another thing I learned tonight is I sometimes say asshole things without knowing it. Now please keep in mind I was completely oblivious to what I was really saying. After kissing for a while, she pulled her head back and smiled at me. I looked at her and said "boy you really like kissing".
For reasons I still don't fully understand, I offended her. Maybe it was the way I said it but I just meant that I could tell she really enjoyed kissing me by the way she was doing it. I calmed her down and we got over it.
Things were great again, we were snuggling and talking and listening to music and having fun. That is until I opened my dumb mouth again and said "I just need to teach you how to French Kiss properly".
Again, I don't know what even prompted me to say such a thing but I did. I just felt that while kissing her she practically choked me with her tongue. I know everyone is different but with any girl I've made out with before her, we'd always have both our tongues touching and moving in different directions. CJ2 just shoved her tongue i my mouth and it really caught me off guard. So much so, that i guess it made me say what I said and then again offending her.
To save my ass I told her not to take anything I say seriously (which is true). She was utterly confused and said "i dont' know if you're joking or not. Were you joking when you said that?" to which I replied "yes I was... kind of".
We ended up making out again and it it was much better to my liking. She slowed things down and got rid of the awkwardness.
To cap the night nicely (and make up for the things i said), I walked her to the bus and waited in the colld for 20 minutes with her to keep her company.
I hope I get to see her again...
Tonight I had another date with Cute Jew 2 (CJ2). This makes it's date # 9 in 3 weeks.
We had seen a movie Saturday night and after the movie marked the first time we really kissed more than once (i.e. make out). She really liked it and even gave me a "crazy in love" look which did freak me out a bit but I just reminded myself that she's not very experienced and must just be excited as I am.
Tonight, however, we took it easy. CJ2 came over and I cooked us dinner. We then went to my room to watch some TV on my computer. Halfway through the episode, it turned into a make out session. At first I was really overwhelmed. She was kissing me with such force and it was so frantic it felt like she need my kisses to live or something. I enjoyed it but felt it was a bit much.
I then learnt a bit of my limits with her. I had placed my hand on her hip and started moving it toward her leg. As I inched her butt, she grabbed my hand and moved it higher up her hip again. No touching below the hip... got it.
Another thing I learned tonight is I sometimes say asshole things without knowing it. Now please keep in mind I was completely oblivious to what I was really saying. After kissing for a while, she pulled her head back and smiled at me. I looked at her and said "boy you really like kissing".
For reasons I still don't fully understand, I offended her. Maybe it was the way I said it but I just meant that I could tell she really enjoyed kissing me by the way she was doing it. I calmed her down and we got over it.
Things were great again, we were snuggling and talking and listening to music and having fun. That is until I opened my dumb mouth again and said "I just need to teach you how to French Kiss properly".
Again, I don't know what even prompted me to say such a thing but I did. I just felt that while kissing her she practically choked me with her tongue. I know everyone is different but with any girl I've made out with before her, we'd always have both our tongues touching and moving in different directions. CJ2 just shoved her tongue i my mouth and it really caught me off guard. So much so, that i guess it made me say what I said and then again offending her.
To save my ass I told her not to take anything I say seriously (which is true). She was utterly confused and said "i dont' know if you're joking or not. Were you joking when you said that?" to which I replied "yes I was... kind of".
We ended up making out again and it it was much better to my liking. She slowed things down and got rid of the awkwardness.
To cap the night nicely (and make up for the things i said), I walked her to the bus and waited in the colld for 20 minutes with her to keep her company.
I hope I get to see her again...
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Elwood 2.0
Yesterday I went through a complete wardrobe change.
A female friend of mine has been asking me for the longest time to allow her to take me shopping. Once I agreed she said I was in for a very unique experience.
We started at my apartment.
She went through all my drawers and closet and we went over every single item of clothing I owned. Basically she told me that I have a good style but I don't wear anything that fits me properly. For example I've been wearing a size 32 pants when in fact I'm really a 29-30. I have a tendency to buy large shirts when I should be wearing medium or small. She told me that from now on I should only look for European cut clothing because they are usually designed to be more fitted.
This was perfect timing since I'm moving in less than a month and have tons of old clothes i should have got rid of ages ago. Well, after we looked through all my clothes, I ended up with 3 large garbage bags worth of stuff to donate to a thrift store. My closet is bare and my My drawers went from brimming with clothes to one completely empty and the other half full.
Then we hit the stores.
She's a very fashionable person in a way that I like. She's not all about spending loads of cash on high end designer makes just because it's Armani. On the other hand she is all about finding things that have a little something that makes it unique but not far out there.
Oh and she know's how to find thing on sale.
We basically went to a store that is known for selling designer clothes at ridiculously lower prices. Plus they have a liquidation section. With her help I bout about 150$ worth of clothes (came to 5 items) that would have normally cost close to 300$.
The only downfall was she really wanted to dress my up classy and we went to Zara right before the stores closed. I ended up being convinced to be one pair of pants and one shirt that cost more money than all the other items together. However, she insisted they look awesome on me.
I figured if I'm going for change, than I'll go all the way.
The other god thing about my shopping "date" was I had brand new clothes for my real date that night. I was invited to a Hanukkah party by Cute Jew 2.
While having dinner with my shopping friend, I had a realization about two things that I have a bad habit of doing:
1. I'm very indecisive when it comes to dating someone especially at the beginning. I worry so much about what could happen, what I want, etc. instead of just enjoying the moment. It's totally OK to date someone for a while and then realize they are not for you. I don't have to figure it out on the first date.
2. I tell too many people my progress when dating someone. I'm so wishy washy, hat I keep changing my mind, like i am with CJ2. If i would just keep it all to myself, then no one would know my indecisiveness and I'd be able to just figure things out myself instead of feeling like i have to keep justifying everything to my friends. Otherwise they'll ask me things like "Oh I thought you liked her" or "Oh didn't you say you weren't interested?" all the time.
So I'm going to try really hard this time to keep my dating information to myself and if I'm in the mood to talk tot someone or rant about it, I'll just use this blog. That's what I started it for in the first place.
Speaking of which, even though I wrote a post recently that I'd tell Cute Jew 2 that I'm not up for dating her, last night went int eh complete opposite direction. I think I made her like me more.
We went to her "party", which ended up being 8 girls and myself hanging out at an apartment having dessert. I was decked out in my new clothes and for once kept pretty quiet (mostly due to be exhausted but also trying something new).
Because I never had time to go home, I just met her straight from shopping and that didn't allow me to go get the CD I burnt for her (I made a copy of an album she told me she wanted to buy). Once I told her that, her face lit up like I did the most awesome thing in the world. Bonus points for me.
The party was nice and chill and then when it got late we went to the Subway together.
We were both tired and quiet but she leaned on my shoulder so I put my arm around her. Then on the subway car, her stop was coming up so she told em she had a really nice time Adan was glad I came.
I couldn't help it but I felt like it was the right moment to kiss her. I could see she really wanted me to and I just couldnt' resist (and wanted to also) so I did.
She's coming tonight to support me at my show. She's really excited.
I also found out something very interesting last night. I dont' know why the conversation came in that direction and I wasn't purposely trying to veer it there, but we were talking about dating experience. I.e. how many b/f - g/f have we had. She admitted she's dated 4 guys, the longest being 4 years and the other 3 only 6 months each.
She told me she usually gets a lot of guys after her but most of them just want to get in her pants.
She is exactly where I was when I was dating Wendy.
I'm not sure what I want from this especially now that there won't be any sex, but for now I just want to go with the flow.
A female friend of mine has been asking me for the longest time to allow her to take me shopping. Once I agreed she said I was in for a very unique experience.
We started at my apartment.
She went through all my drawers and closet and we went over every single item of clothing I owned. Basically she told me that I have a good style but I don't wear anything that fits me properly. For example I've been wearing a size 32 pants when in fact I'm really a 29-30. I have a tendency to buy large shirts when I should be wearing medium or small. She told me that from now on I should only look for European cut clothing because they are usually designed to be more fitted.
This was perfect timing since I'm moving in less than a month and have tons of old clothes i should have got rid of ages ago. Well, after we looked through all my clothes, I ended up with 3 large garbage bags worth of stuff to donate to a thrift store. My closet is bare and my My drawers went from brimming with clothes to one completely empty and the other half full.
Then we hit the stores.
She's a very fashionable person in a way that I like. She's not all about spending loads of cash on high end designer makes just because it's Armani. On the other hand she is all about finding things that have a little something that makes it unique but not far out there.
Oh and she know's how to find thing on sale.
We basically went to a store that is known for selling designer clothes at ridiculously lower prices. Plus they have a liquidation section. With her help I bout about 150$ worth of clothes (came to 5 items) that would have normally cost close to 300$.
The only downfall was she really wanted to dress my up classy and we went to Zara right before the stores closed. I ended up being convinced to be one pair of pants and one shirt that cost more money than all the other items together. However, she insisted they look awesome on me.
I figured if I'm going for change, than I'll go all the way.
The other god thing about my shopping "date" was I had brand new clothes for my real date that night. I was invited to a Hanukkah party by Cute Jew 2.
While having dinner with my shopping friend, I had a realization about two things that I have a bad habit of doing:
1. I'm very indecisive when it comes to dating someone especially at the beginning. I worry so much about what could happen, what I want, etc. instead of just enjoying the moment. It's totally OK to date someone for a while and then realize they are not for you. I don't have to figure it out on the first date.
2. I tell too many people my progress when dating someone. I'm so wishy washy, hat I keep changing my mind, like i am with CJ2. If i would just keep it all to myself, then no one would know my indecisiveness and I'd be able to just figure things out myself instead of feeling like i have to keep justifying everything to my friends. Otherwise they'll ask me things like "Oh I thought you liked her" or "Oh didn't you say you weren't interested?" all the time.
So I'm going to try really hard this time to keep my dating information to myself and if I'm in the mood to talk tot someone or rant about it, I'll just use this blog. That's what I started it for in the first place.
Speaking of which, even though I wrote a post recently that I'd tell Cute Jew 2 that I'm not up for dating her, last night went int eh complete opposite direction. I think I made her like me more.
We went to her "party", which ended up being 8 girls and myself hanging out at an apartment having dessert. I was decked out in my new clothes and for once kept pretty quiet (mostly due to be exhausted but also trying something new).
Because I never had time to go home, I just met her straight from shopping and that didn't allow me to go get the CD I burnt for her (I made a copy of an album she told me she wanted to buy). Once I told her that, her face lit up like I did the most awesome thing in the world. Bonus points for me.
The party was nice and chill and then when it got late we went to the Subway together.
We were both tired and quiet but she leaned on my shoulder so I put my arm around her. Then on the subway car, her stop was coming up so she told em she had a really nice time Adan was glad I came.
I couldn't help it but I felt like it was the right moment to kiss her. I could see she really wanted me to and I just couldnt' resist (and wanted to also) so I did.
She's coming tonight to support me at my show. She's really excited.
I also found out something very interesting last night. I dont' know why the conversation came in that direction and I wasn't purposely trying to veer it there, but we were talking about dating experience. I.e. how many b/f - g/f have we had. She admitted she's dated 4 guys, the longest being 4 years and the other 3 only 6 months each.
She told me she usually gets a lot of guys after her but most of them just want to get in her pants.
She is exactly where I was when I was dating Wendy.
I'm not sure what I want from this especially now that there won't be any sex, but for now I just want to go with the flow.
Saturday, December 4, 2010
On The Fence
Tonight I was at a dinner party. My good friend Spider Dude is back in town for a month from Australia. I ended up spending most of the night chatting with another friend, I'll call Tall Friend (yup she's tall). Tall Friend has been bugging me lately about my progress with Cute Jew 2.
She was curious on how things are going and I said "OK". It's not the first time and she's not the first person to mention that I don't really sound so into her from my reaction.
I've been really all over the place with CJ2. She's cute and interesting but a few things bother me. She's short, seems inexperienced, and not very independent. It's mostly the exact opposite of what I liked so much about Indie Rock Girl.
IRG lived on her own, not very far from me. She was very outgoing and seemed very independent. She knew what she wanted and would tell me as it were.
CJ2 lives with her parents far away, and is extremely shy. At first I thought i could live with these things but if they are bothering me now, then there is no point leading her on.
I realize on top of all that, that I think I just don't really want to date date right now (or at least not with her). Tall Friend was telling me how she just joined OK Cupid and just wants to meet new people and get out there and also admitted to being open to casual sex.
Now I'm not saying I want to go out and sleep on the first date with every girl I meet, but that's kind of what I feel like I want as well. Just to meet different people and see what happens. GO out and have fun.
I met CJ2, find out she likes me and already have been on 5 dates in two weeks. If i keep that up I'll definitely be misleading her and also won't have the time to meet other people.
I've been on the fence with her but I think I've made up my mind that she's not for me in that way. I'd still like to hang out with her perhaps once in a while but not spend all my free time with her.
She invited me to a party tomorrow night which I'll still attend but I think I'll just let her know afterwards that I'm just not in the right frame of mind to date right now which is the truth. I am pretty preoccupied with moving and also will be spending a lot of time looking for a new job once the new year begins and I'm all settled into my new apartment.
Then again, before dinner tonight, I had it in my head that I was going to try and finally get a kiss from her.
See what I mean by being on the fence? However, I think it's true that I'm not really into her and the whole point of writing this post was for me to wake up and be aware of the obvious.
Well, I'll post what happens later this weekend.
She was curious on how things are going and I said "OK". It's not the first time and she's not the first person to mention that I don't really sound so into her from my reaction.
I've been really all over the place with CJ2. She's cute and interesting but a few things bother me. She's short, seems inexperienced, and not very independent. It's mostly the exact opposite of what I liked so much about Indie Rock Girl.
IRG lived on her own, not very far from me. She was very outgoing and seemed very independent. She knew what she wanted and would tell me as it were.
CJ2 lives with her parents far away, and is extremely shy. At first I thought i could live with these things but if they are bothering me now, then there is no point leading her on.
I realize on top of all that, that I think I just don't really want to date date right now (or at least not with her). Tall Friend was telling me how she just joined OK Cupid and just wants to meet new people and get out there and also admitted to being open to casual sex.
Now I'm not saying I want to go out and sleep on the first date with every girl I meet, but that's kind of what I feel like I want as well. Just to meet different people and see what happens. GO out and have fun.
I met CJ2, find out she likes me and already have been on 5 dates in two weeks. If i keep that up I'll definitely be misleading her and also won't have the time to meet other people.
I've been on the fence with her but I think I've made up my mind that she's not for me in that way. I'd still like to hang out with her perhaps once in a while but not spend all my free time with her.
She invited me to a party tomorrow night which I'll still attend but I think I'll just let her know afterwards that I'm just not in the right frame of mind to date right now which is the truth. I am pretty preoccupied with moving and also will be spending a lot of time looking for a new job once the new year begins and I'm all settled into my new apartment.
Then again, before dinner tonight, I had it in my head that I was going to try and finally get a kiss from her.
See what I mean by being on the fence? However, I think it's true that I'm not really into her and the whole point of writing this post was for me to wake up and be aware of the obvious.
Well, I'll post what happens later this weekend.
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