The more I think about it, I just can't pinpoint when things shifted back to crap but it felt like almost immediately after that one nice day we had, Katie just started being cold me again. Plus we got busy again.
It was tough. I really had made an effort to cut projects to spend more time with Katie but then our schedules wouldn't match up. She got busy with her phd and I still had projects I couldn't abandon. Ones I had started before we has our big talk, that were to close to completion to stop now.
I kept telling myself everything would be better once I was done the last of my stuff. Then I would have all the time in the world to focus on Katie.
Meanwhile it was like pulling teeth to actually see her. We kept canceling on each other because it was just too rush or tight to see each other.
One night I tried to see her and ask her if she wanted to see a show together. It would have been the first time in a few days we would have hung out. She said she was going but with her best friend and that night was hang out time with her best friend. She said I could sit with them but not expect to hang out after.
After the show, I went with a bunch of people to a bar to watch a hockey game and her and her friend showed up: I ended up sitting behind her and it was the most uncomfortable feeling ever. I really didn't feel welcomed by her at all.
Looking back, I knew things were bad but I never did anything about it. I should have called her out on stuff but instead kept saying once June arrives (and we're both less busy) things would get better. It was only 2 weeks away. Things had to get better!
They never did.
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