Reflection

I think the biggest problem with the trip wasn't that I got sick. It was there was so much pressure for it to go amazing.

I think things had reached a plateau with Katie and I and this trip was supposed to "fix" everything. Even the first day I didn't feel 100% connected with Katie which was an issue of mine the entire time we dated.

She brought it up more than once that she didn't feel I was giving my all to the relationship. I never believed her because I was constantly trying to see her.

Looking back, though, because I had so much going on and was tired/sick all the time, even when we were together, I wasn't always 100% there. I was easily distracted.

With the trip behind us I was hoping things would bounce back.

They got worse.